Somedays put you off .. well it could be the ultra sensitive person in me who gets hurts for all silly things..but then loneliness has no other explanation.

I was home for 3 weeks, except the visit to the big city for 2 days.. Well, there was a plan for a week long trip to another EU country for a sort of youth conference .. had even my tickets booked, but at the last moment, I backed out .. I felt too tired and wanted to do nothing .. just laze around .. walk around.. read some stuff and take long warm showers.. And indeed I did all this - I look fresh! And tomorrow the classes reopen.. I was looking fwd to meet everybody ..wanted to hear all that chitter-chatter of the international crowd getting back to the same pool.. until I realized that folks are back since 2-3 days and they have been hanging out together.. it suddenly hurt that nobody wanted to let me know .. felt so fucking excluded.. you know, like a silly child.. but then that's me!

Suddenly I feel like a stranger - despite being an extrovert and my game-for-anything attitude!